Sunday, April 03, 2005
one of the hardest things in recent memory.
i love writing about and showing you me and my friends and i like the fact that i've decided to keep this blog pretty removed from my personal self. but tonight somehting happened and i need to use this. and this is me at my most candid.
angela drunk dialed me tonight.
i havent spoken to her since mid january and she drunk dialed me.
i dont know what about it was so hard, but i just felt this immense feeling of millions of things. happiness, anger, vitriolic hatred, utter sadness.
im just mad. mad that things didn't work. i try to convince myself that things have been better since her. and they have in terms of making friends and laughing and stuff.. but its different. its hard to explain, but im sure anyone who has had a long relationship knows exactly what im feeling.
im mad because she had to be drunk talk to me. we used to share everything with eachother. we were best friends and now she can only call me when she's drunk.
its heartbreaking to see someone you loved for such a long time and invested so much in change so drastically and suddenly.
in a word.. tonight was devastating.
angela drunk dialed me tonight.
i havent spoken to her since mid january and she drunk dialed me.
i dont know what about it was so hard, but i just felt this immense feeling of millions of things. happiness, anger, vitriolic hatred, utter sadness.
im just mad. mad that things didn't work. i try to convince myself that things have been better since her. and they have in terms of making friends and laughing and stuff.. but its different. its hard to explain, but im sure anyone who has had a long relationship knows exactly what im feeling.
im mad because she had to be drunk talk to me. we used to share everything with eachother. we were best friends and now she can only call me when she's drunk.
its heartbreaking to see someone you loved for such a long time and invested so much in change so drastically and suddenly.
in a word.. tonight was devastating.
# posted by Nick @ 3:47 AM 
